Hey every one,
How are you all? Sorry for my absence lately. With every thing that
has happened over
the past few weeks i haven't wanted to post any thing in here as what
i'm going through at the moment seems like nothing compared to what
poor Chris and Vanessa have been through over the past weeks.

I done a post in huggies (not realising that Pettina was part of the
group)and she responded to my post which i must add has been a great
help, especially knowing that she is going through a similar thing at
the moment as well. Any way, this is what i wrote in
huggies............

I am currently 26wks pregnant with bub number 3 and this is going to
sound so stupid but i am absolutly petrified about giving birth. Even
though i have done it twice before with no worries and reasonably
quick
births (the 1st was 5hrs and the 2nd was 4hrs). Over the past
11months
i have suffered alot of heart break. In novemeber last year i had a
medical termination at 14wks due to my little girl having a terminal
condition called anencephaly and then in March this year i had a
miscarriage at 12wks, i then fell pregga's again straight away with
this bubba. I don't know what it is but just the thought of giving
birth again is enough to scare me s***tless. I really want to have a
c-
section this time but DH is totally against it. I guess i just don't
want any thing to go wrong. I just want my baby out and in my arms
and
to know that he is safe. I doubt that the hospital would give me a
ceaser any way, especially when there is no medical reason why i
should
have one. I am torn between the 2 though. I think to myself about the
6wks after the ceaser and not being able to do any thing compared to
being able to do every thing straight after the birth. AGRRRRRR, what
to do?????????????

Basically, i am just scared that some thing else is going to go wrong
and I want to do every thing i possibly can to avoid that from
happening and if that means having a ceaser then thats what i'll do.
I
also think that since Angela's anniversary is coming up (10th of
November) this might be playing a part in my anxiety. I just feel so
confused and emotional.

As i said, my little dialemma is nothing compared to every thing else
that has happened in our group but i would still appreciate a
responce
if any one else has been in the same situation. Thanks heaps every
one.

Liz xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

P.S. Lea, did you get my e-mail i sent you a few weeks ago with all
of
my details in it????????