Liz.
Im soo glad you decided to post.
Ive been thinking of you alot and what you (we are feeling). I must
admit id like to avoid a ceasar. Bella is too full on and John cant
take much time off work.
I had to go to the hospital last night to have the little man
checked. He is doing ok. Just giving his mamma a scare. While i was
there i heard 2 babies be born, healthy cries and all and i was able
to imagine a healthy baby in my arms or in one of those little
hospital cradles and it was such a refreshing thought. Blankets
wrapped all tight around him with a little blue beanie on his head.
I could almost smell him.
Dont get me wrong it hasnt allayed my fears greatly but i realised
how powerful just a single positive thought amongst the chaos of
emotions is. I felt good for a few minutes.
I also have found my new midwife last week to help with some of the
fear factor. Im just sorry you are yet to recieve great care from
your local Hospital.
Im here if you need to rebound.

And yes it is getting close to your little ones angel day. Your
emotions must be flying high. I know mine are. Mercy's is November 3.

Thinking of you lots

Pettina

--- In as_ap@..., Lea Coleman <leannec72@...> wrote:
>
> Liz, firstly, I probably did, we've all been so sick in this
house, I may have missed a lot that was going on, I'll go in search
and make sure when I get a chance love.
>  
> Secondly, I agree that your fears are very natural, I too had
great fears..but in the opposite, that I'd have another c-section.
In the end I did have another c-section and my fears were put to
rest when the procedure was nothing much like the previous one I'd
had.
>  
> I had feared that if Arden wasn't out of me with the minimum of
fuss something would go wrong.  I'm glad I had him the way I did,
and now realise that although my fears were normal and quite ok,
they were nothing but negative energy.
>  
> I know how much easier it is to say than to do, but please, try
your heart out to relax into this decision, be guided by your heart,
your head and your medical professionals too.  Don't let anyone
bully you into making anything but the choice right for you and your
precious rainbow baby.  If you want a c-section with a cherry on
top you see to it that you get it.
>  
> In my experience, bereaved mums are given a great deal of
consideration when having subsequent babies and you need to stress
upon them your emotional needs and how important they are. 
>  
>
>  
> Lea xxxxxx
> Mum to Sage, Nara, angel baby ~Ben~ and rainbow baby Arden
> Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak whispers the o'er-
fraught heart and bids it break.  ~William Shakespeare
>
>
>
>
> ----- Original Message ----
> From: Elizabeth <epsmith@...>
> To: as_ap@...
> Sent: Wednesday, 8 October, 2008 3:26:23 PM
> Subject: [as_ap] Hi
>
> Hey every one,
> How are you all? Sorry for my absence lately. With every thing
that
> has happened over
> the past few weeks i haven't wanted to post any thing in here as
what
> i'm going through at the moment seems like nothing compared to
what
> poor Chris and Vanessa have been through over the past weeks.
>
> I done a post in huggies (not realising that Pettina was part of
the
> group)and she responded to my post which i must add has been a
great
> help, especially knowing that she is going through a similar thing
at
> the moment as well. Any way, this is what i wrote in
> huggies............
>
> I am currently 26wks pregnant with bub number 3 and this is going
to
> sound so stupid but i am absolutly petrified about giving birth.
Even
> though i have done it twice before with no worries and reasonably
> quick
> births (the 1st was 5hrs and the 2nd was 4hrs). Over the past
> 11months
> i have suffered alot of heart break. In novemeber last year i had
a
> medical termination at 14wks due to my little girl having a
terminal
> condition called anencephaly and then in March this year i had a
> miscarriage at 12wks, i then fell pregga's again straight away
with
> this bubba. I don't know what it is but just the thought of giving
> birth again is enough to scare me s***tless. I really want to have
a
> c-
> section this time but DH is totally against it. I guess i just
don't
> want any thing to go wrong. I just want my baby out and in my arms
> and
> to know that he is safe. I doubt that the hospital would give me a
> ceaser any way, especially when there is no medical reason why i
> should
> have one. I am torn between the 2 though. I think to myself about
the
> 6wks after the ceaser and not being able to do any thing compared
to
> being able to do every thing straight after the birth. AGRRRRRR,
what
> to do?????????????
>
> Basically, i am just scared that some thing else is going to go
wrong
> and I want to do every thing i possibly can to avoid that from
> happening and if that means having a ceaser then thats what i'll
do.
> I
> also think that since Angela's anniversary is coming up (10th of
> November) this might be playing a part in my anxiety. I just feel
so
> confused and emotional.
>
> As i said, my little dialemma is nothing compared to every thing
else
> that has happened in our group but i would still appreciate a
> responce
> if any one else has been in the same situation. Thanks heaps every
> one.
>
> Liz xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
>
> P.S. Lea, did you get my e-mail i sent you a few weeks ago with
all
> of
> my details in it????????
>
>
>
>
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