Hi Everyone,
It's been a while since I posted, so just wanted to drop in and let you know I'm
thinking of you all.
Also, I had my 20 week scan last week for baby "D3" (in case I haven't explained
before, D stands for "Dubbie" which was my daughter's knickname in utero and
still is, D2 was Matthew, and so this baby is D3, Dubbie number 3).
D3 is a girl - unnamed as yet! It's more difficult than I imagined. I think
we'll probably think over names and choose something when she's born.
D3 is healthy which is great. Praise God!
I've had bad asthma this week which has me worried about myself and D3, but
there's nothing I can do but take the medication and try and rest and get
better.
Next weekend I'm speaking at a Christian conference for women in Newcastle
(called Women of Truth) about my experience of Matthew's life and death and how
my faith in God helped me through this time. I'm leading the seminar with my
pastor's wife, and we've titled it "God's purposes in suffering: coping with the
death of a baby this side of heaven". It's been a lot of work, but a really good
process for me to get my thoughts, feelings and Matthew's story expressed in
words. I've also put together a visual presentation of Matthew's life/story to
music, which I really "enjoyed" doing. I still cry every time I watch it.
I have a very busy month in May, and this seminar is just the start of things,
so I'm hoping that having that done will at least lift a bit of a weight off my
shoulders. I have no idea how I'll be feeling emotionally next Sunday....drained
I imagine and I may crash after this point!
Hope everyone is OK.
Love Vanessa