Hi Justine.

Im so glad you have decided to post. Jus know that you are not alone in your
emotions.

I will share myself with you later.... i am struggling greatly with missing my
sweet Mercy Grace at the moment and dont feel i am able to share right now.
Just know that i am happy that you have made that first step to post... its a
huge one.

--- In as_ap@..., "Jenny" <jenzi83@...> wrote:
>
> Hi Justine,
>
> Your story sounds awfuly similar to mine.  My angel baby Isabell was born on
the 6th of December 07 at 20 weeks.  She only just made it to 20 weeks by 45mins
otherwise she would of been considered a miscarriage and not a stillbirth and
would not have had a birth or death certificate.  I also gave birth naturally
after having the pregnancy interrupted.  We were not given the choice to
continue with the pregnancy.  I am sure this happened for a reason and no longer
feel guilty having had the pregancy interrupted.
>
> I am 24 weeks pregnant with my third child, a boy, who seems to be going well
as per all the scans but I don't think I will feel at ease until he is born and
I know he is okay and well.
>
> It's good that you have posted and I think it is such a big step. You may find
that the rest of your family don't talk about your angel baby so as not to cause
you any more grief and it might help to tell them that you do want to include
Matthew as part of the family.  They may not know.
>
> Hope everything goes well with the birth and that you have plenty of help
around once the new baby arrives.  You sound like a very brave woman, as I think
all parents who have lost a child are.
>
> Take Care
> Jenny
>
>
> --- In as_ap@..., "justinegooderham" <justinegooderham@> wrote:
> >
> > Hi Everyone,
> >
> > I have been part of this group for about 12months now and this is my first
post.  I do not know alot of your stories and I'm very sorry about that. When I
first became part of this group I read some of your stories in the files part
and decided to write my own, after sending it onto a family member for them to
look over it for me she informed me I hadn't gone into enough detail of my
feelings at the time of having my little man.  So there the story stayed because
everytime I tried to look into that day and my feelings my heart broke again.
> >
> > My short story is that I'm am a mother to a 4yr old boy Joseph and angel
baby Matthew (01.12.07) (as he was born at 18weeks we didn't have to legally
name him but we already had the name picked and I could never name another child
that).  I am now 31weeks with boy number 3, it took me a long time to try again.
I feel its taken me so long to post in this group because I have always felt
that there is alot of people who have had a harder time of it than me.  We did
interrupt the pregnancy and I feel sometimes that was the wrong decision as alot
of family etc have forgotten about my little man its like I was never pregnant
then, but I gave natural birth to my boy and that I suppose has also helped me. 
When ever I think we made the wrong decision I try to think what my state
would've been like had I have continued with the pregnancy.  I'm not really sure
if this makes sense but I know if I go back through it I will delete it and not
post on the wall again.
> >
> > I don't have many birth fears Joseph was born by emergency C section at
36weeks because he could get passed my pelvis.  So at my doctors appointment on
wednesday I will be getting my booking date, so hopefully not much can go wrong
with the birth.  We live 600km from both our families so my mother and mother in
law are coming to visit for a few days each after the birth to help me ut with
the washing etc that I can't do.  Hopefully I don't go early bacuse they have to
book time off work.
> >
> > Again I'm not sure if it makes sense but I'm going to post it anyway.
> >
> > Justine
> >
>