Hi Everyone,
I just joined today. I joined a similar group about 3 years ago but I never
posted anything on it. I guess I just wasn't ready.

I have shared a very difficult time in my life with you all. For several
reasons. If anyone can understand, it would be others who have gone through such
a terrible thing. I also felt that it would be a kind of catharis for me, and
allow to move forward. And perhaps, someone who is going through this now may
find something in it that helps them move forward.

Although, thinking about what I wrote, it doesn't sound like I have come very
far in such a long time, but at the time of writing it I had been deep in my
memories of that time. I don't usually allow myself to dwell on it often, but
for some reason it came into my head the last 2 days and hasn't been far from my
thoughts.

I have come farther than I ever thought I would, and that is reason enough to
hope that things will get better still in the future. I can never replace my
lost child, but perhaps having another in time will go a long way to fill that
place in my heart.

If anyone wants to talk to me on here, I am willing to listen. Rant, vent,
rage, cry. We've all done it, and still do sometimes. These days though I tend
to just shed a quiet tear when i'm alone and thinking of her. I haven't spoken
like this to anyone, and it's like yesterday at times.

Anyway, I better go. Don't want to drown you all. :)