Hi, im glad 3 years on you are able to share your journey with us.... Mercy Grace was born 24/9/07 and passed away in mummies arms 3/11/07. I am struggling greatly with my loss at this time.. some days finding it hard to breathe. I hope in time i am able to share more with you and everyone else. There is much i have yet to share with you girls... some of this i have only just recently shared partielly with my husband....

Better be off before the tears flow.. they are never too far away at the moment.

New member... welcome and im sorry yuou need to be here
Pettina

--- In as_ap@..., "r.paparone" <r.paparone@...> wrote:
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> Hi Everyone,
> I just joined today. I joined a similar group about 3 years ago but I never posted anything on it. I guess I just wasn't ready.
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> I have shared a very difficult time in my life with you all. For several reasons. If anyone can understand, it would be others who have gone through such a terrible thing. I also felt that it would be a kind of catharis for me, and allow to move forward. And perhaps, someone who is going through this now may find something in it that helps them move forward.
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> Although, thinking about what I wrote, it doesn't sound like I have come very far in such a long time, but at the time of writing it I had been deep in my memories of that time. I don't usually allow myself to dwell on it often, but for some reason it came into my head the last 2 days and hasn't been far from my thoughts.
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> I have come farther than I ever thought I would, and that is reason enough to hope that things will get better still in the future. I can never replace my lost child, but perhaps having another in time will go a long way to fill that place in my heart.
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> If anyone wants to talk to me on here, I am willing to listen. Rant, vent, rage, cry. We've all done it, and still do sometimes. These days though I tend to just shed a quiet tear when i'm alone and thinking of her. I haven't spoken like this to anyone, and it's like yesterday at times.
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> Anyway, I better go. Don't want to drown you all. :)
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