Thank you Lea you bought a tear to my eye (well quite a few). Yes I am
very tired at the moment my body needs time to rest but I just cant
stop and as soon as I do I break down in tears and it hurts so much.
I am not keeping myself busy so I forget I am keeping myself busy to
keep my mind on other things which sounds very strange even when I say
it to myself.

At the moment I am finding that there are prgnant women around me
every where at work in the streets nearlly all of my friends are
pregnant and it is hard to deal with. I am not a jealous person but I
am finding myself to be jealous that they are going to have there
babies in there arms forever and I didnt get that chance with my angel
although she will always be in my heart.

I hope you get over your cold soon, it is the weather doing it we have
had so many admissions with the flu lately it is becoming rediculous.

Well I hope you enjoy your day and feel better soon :-)