Tammie, I'm fighting the urge to say sorry for making you cry because, one thing I'm pretty sure of is sometimes it's good to have a darn good cry and I'm often thankful that someone helped me to let my own tears go....so I hope you felt heaps better after letting those tears out!
Sounds like you are doing what's right for you right now, and that's important, and you certainly seem a smart enough cookie to know when you've had enough and to get some downtime when you need it. There may be times here when we notice some things you say or do that we'll recognise and you can tell us to butt out and let you go with the flow of offer you advice as you see fit, please don't ever hesitate to ask our opinions if you'd like to hear the absolute truth.......we'll be sure to be honest with you.
It's so funny, when you're pregnant you see pregnant people everywhere, but when you've lost a child you seem to see
them even more so....for me it was seeing twins left right and centre, now.......I'm not seeing nearly as many and when I do, I'm not so heartbroken anymore. Jealousy, envy or whatever we want to call it happens, I was gutted when I realised how jealous I was of others.....it just didn't seem fair, why me and not them, why them and not me????? There's no doubt in my mind that feeling this way is natural and doesn't mean we are all of a sudden cold awful people...........we've had our hopes and dreams torn from our hearts, how can we possibly not be affected by seeing others living theirs in our faces? Remember, we are here to support each other through thick and thin, so if you are having a bad day, this is a great place to vent! We may not be here to read it as you write it, but it's great to get your feelings out on the computer, it was my therapy through my pregnancy and beyond.
Thanks for the well wishes with
the cold, I'm feeling a bit better today.
How are you feeling after your accident on the train last week?
How is Abbey coping? And your hubby?
Your photos were great, what a good looking family you are. Don't forget, we do have a photo album section on this group..........so feel free to play with it and add some pics for us all to see, I would especially love to see those foot and handprints of April if you feel up to sharing them with us, we know just how beautiful and perfect those little feet and hands must've been!!!! I'll add some of mine right now for you to see.
Hope your work day is going ok, hugs to get you through it.
Lea xxxxx
Tammie <abbey_april@...> wrote:
Thank you Lea you bought a tear to my eye (well quite a few). Yes I am
very tired at the moment my body needs time to rest but I just cant
stop and as soon as I do I break down in tears and it hurts so much.
I am not keeping myself busy so I forget I am keeping myself busy to
keep my mind on other things which sounds very strange even when I say
it to myself.
At the moment I am finding that there are prgnant women around me
every where at work in the streets nearlly all of my friends are
pregnant and it is hard to deal with. I am not a jealous person but I
am finding myself to be jealous that they are going to have there
babies in there arms forever and I didnt get that chance with my angel
although she will always be in my heart.
I hope you get over your cold soon, it is the weather doing it we have
had so many admissions with the flu lately it is becoming rediculous.
Well I hope you enjoy your day and feel better soon :-)
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